Down.....Down.....Down....

*sigh* starting entry is too bad! hell yeah! i know it! 2-3 days back was a very miserable days! everything is likes dumping me to the ground! oke! and as usuall, i'm crying! damn u, so weak! semua benda aku rasa tak kena! and the worse part is when i feel like i need to face all this things alone!

i went here and there...i try to find the solution! but things happened buat aku rasa macam nak terjun je bangunan 80 tingkat! * rasa je la * tapi alahamdulillah iman masih kuat dalam dada cuma aku kecewa dengan apa yang berlaku sekarang nie! dan to be honest aku benci entry emo tahap gaban macam nie! :'( *nak nangis lagi!*

i was like thinking of something for my future life.... i keep on waiting until suddenly an unexpected chance appears and i wanna grabbed it but i can't! shoot! totally looser! to be honest again, i really unsatisfied with what i have! i need more than this! i need a career, a job and sure money....at least for myself so that i won't be the biggest BURDEN to 'those people'! *those people that i can't mentioned the name here....and i want 'those people' to know that i feel damn useless everyday!yes! its everyday feelings that i never mentioned to you! *

aarrgghhh!!!!! basically its hard for me to explain everything, to express the feeling, to tell what had happened from A to Z....kalau aku citer pon tak tentu korang dapat faham apa yang aku rasa!

its difficult to change the mentality of people...outdated mentality at all! kalau mampu aku pegi mengemis kat tepi jalan, aku buat je!kalau aku anak jutawan, duit melimpah ruah, tak payah aku nak tempuhi semua nie...i can do everything i want! senang senang je aku kick out all these obstacles!

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